flawless_serenity's Datingish

controlling much?!

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 20:11:33 GMT

Hey everyone,

wowww.. long time no talk huh.
sorry about that, once again.
These sites are becoming further and further on my to do lists these days.. but atleast im updating :D

Yeah so, that tyler guy.. hes FAKE. haha i knew it.
end of story.

Me and my current boyfriend, well were really rough right now. he thinks hes in control of my life.. or atleast so he thinks.. I say im going to toronto with my friend for the night/weekend with her work, free hotel.. the guess who concert, etc. and he tells me no.. haha LIKE what the fuck is that? For one.. no.. ill do what i want, ok! and ttwo.. puuhhlease , i wasnt asking you if i could go, i was telling you..

So i left, and he told me before i go, if i go.. that ill have to pack my bags and move home and i laughed cause he cant kick me out its not his house and fuck ya ill be more than glad to do so to get away from his sorry controlling cheating ass.. haha sorry im venting :) anywhoo.. thats about it.

=]

Jess

confused much?

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 17:59:49 GMT

If there is something im good at its being gullible and confused..

But, all is good.. im a big girl.
Boys confuse the shit out of thats what. i have these huge feelings for some guy and then all of a sudden he could be FAKE.. wtf is this? why would someone ever wanna try and be someone they are not.. thats plain idiot to me. but you know, some people need the attention of some hot sexy guy that they never get. So, really.. i dont blame them.. but dont come online and act like some hot jock that you are no where near being.

Ah well.. im done bitching about that haha.

There's a song here.. that i kind of wanted to express..

Yeah, oh yeah
Alright, oh, oh, oh

It's amazing how you knock me off my feet, hmm
Everytime you come around me I get weak, oh yeah
Nobody ever made me feel this way, oh
You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away
So I wanna know

[1] - I wanna know what turns you on
So I can be all that and more
I'd like to know what makes you cry
So I can be the one who always makes you smile

Girl he never understood what you were worth, hmm no
And he never took the time to make it work
(You deserve more loving, girl)
Baby I'm the kind of man who shows concern, yes I do, oh
Anyway that I can please you let me learn
So I wanna know

[Repeat 1]

[2] - Tell me what I gotta do to please you
Baby anything you say I'll do
Cause I only wanna make you happy
From the bottom of my heart, it's true

[Repeat 2]

I wish that I could take a journey through your mind, alright
And find emotions that you always try to hide babe, oh
I do believe that there's a love you wanna share, oh, oh
I'll take good care of you lady, have no fear, oh
So I wanna know

I love this song, gives me shivers!

UGHHHHHEFKJBKJEHFO READ PLEASE!

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 16:17:09 GMT

The Gossip Column

Boys Boys Boys.

So I have some stuff to confess.
Me and mike.. well were still that boring ass couple that i am getting sick of.
I met a guy online. i know baddddd jess, but im doiing NOTHIGN wrong, yet lol
hes suuuuch a sweetie and sooo incredibly hot. OMG. haha i would show u him but i have repect for him rather than posting his shit lol
anyways. We text all the time and no were not immature lol
Hes just so nice and respects me and hes actually excited for me when i tell him i get accepted to schools.
Me and mike are rocky. ehs sooo boring now and he never shows me affection anymore! If its like this now, what is it going to be like if i marry the guy... cause honestly thats what it feels like. Like an old couple thats been married long time and knows eachother well enough not to care. Im not saying every marriage is like thaat.. at ALL but im just saying that.. some people get like that and split you know? My parents did. Im just sick of his shit. he disrespects me even tho he claims he doesnt. but hes always right. Im unhappy... but i love him/ UGH WHAT TO DOO.

So, Im still talking to ty alot. alot alot alot
He is the biggest sweetheart ever.. and its not a good thing.
Cause I have a boyfriend and Im falling for this other guy.
So

But thing is.. now that me and my boy live together, im getting completely sick of it.. like all we do and do alot of is fight and argue over the dumbest shit EVER. and im sooo not a girl that likes to argue. I always lose cause i get fed up and give up. Oh well. he always wants to win anyways. But literally I fell in love with him and now i feel that im falling out of love with him. Is that possible? Ugh i hate it.

I mean, Im glad I h ave people to talk to about this and a blog to explain shit but.. its not cool living with the boy you dont know if you still lvoe anymore. Of course im happy.. most of the time. But i come home from work and sometimes wish i wasnt home..

I mean. I get my space.. but he bitches about how much I go out, and i only go out on weekends witht he only girl i know from hamilton, kim. so we go dancing and have a good time? Did i say he couldnt go out? NO.. but he decides not to so thats his choice so he shouldnt be bitching. but oh well. I have a great time hile hes inside bored shitless playing his viedo games like a little 13 year old does.

God I hate video games, I can play them for like an hour or two but then i gota get out of there. it bores me sooo sooo much

This saturday, Ty is coming from brampton (40 minutes away from hamilton) to come out with me and my girl kim and her boy to go dancing and pre drink and be all cute! Am i doing anything wrong by hanging with him? I mean My man now has cheated on me so i know how bad it hurts and i would never do that to him. but flirting isnt breaking those rules are they? Atleast i dont think so. whatd oy ou think?

anyways.

I gotta get back to work
Sorry for all the spelling mistakes. when i type fast i just giv'r and dont look back at all the mistakes ahah and im too lazy to correct any of them!

<3 peace bitchessss.. give me ur opinion!!!

Tell me your opinions, but DONT be rude..

Ditchin' the rents!

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 19:55:01 GMT

So I have this friend who always comes to me for advice.. all the time, about her and her boyfriends relationship. They are cute, don't get me wrong. But completely opposite.. which doesn't always matter and in this case. It doesn't. However.. Myles (her boyfriend) always tends to ditch her for his guy friends. And she tells him to stop and it just keeps happening and this where I come in.

I tell her he's not reliable.. and if he literally ditches you, after seeing his buddies at school the whole day, its pretty bad. I mean she loves him and you can tell he loves her.. but seriously is he mature or trustworthy enough for a relationship? or should she be with him? I say no. Not only because he ''ditches'' her but because he is an ass to her constanttly and makes her cry continuously, and I think thats just wrong. But she says to me, yeah im breaking up with him.. yatta yatta.. and never does. I think she's scared to lose him. i know she wants to be with him.. but shes better off without. Thats just my opinion.

She told me this the other day that her mom and myles are not good.. like her mom hates him because of what Jen( my friend ) tells her mom about what Myles does or says tpo her so obviously her mom wont like it.. so jens mom was going to give him another chance and made dinner all day for this night for him to come eat dinner witht hem and get along, and you know what he did? He showed up and told jen he is sorry and had to go cause he forgot it was ''guys night''.. Like are you FUCKING kidding me? Excuse my language... but if it was my boyfriend and my mom spent literally all day preparing this feast for us and all of a sudden my boyfriend ditches out on me to go hang with guys when he can see them whenever but only has this one chance to make a good connection with my family.. I would literally break up with him for just dis-respecting my family. Period.

That is just horrific.
And when she told me I said fuck him, dump his ass. He is definitely not worth the pain and the effort if all he wants to do is see his buddies when he sees them every signle day at school... and he doesnt see his gf cause she is out of school and doesnt get along with her rents because of the past shit thast has gone down.

Do you think I did the right thing by giving her advice? I mean I told her its her choice! But do you agree with me about how big of an idiot he is? and how childish and un trustworthy he is as a person? Would your parents ahte you if this happened to your boy?

- j

Highschool grown-ups?!

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 22:36:52 GMT

This is a little off topic, but from my post today I got a lot of opinions, which is nice, but when someone is rude to me.. That's not accepted.

People that come on your site and call you a bitch for no reason and dont even read the post correctly to even justify their answer? Seriously, grow up. I'm 19 and I act older than someof the people that are on here and in their 20's or 30's. Im not pointing anyone out.

Thanks for everyone that gives me their opinions and their life stories, I love reading them. But when I see something like - 'your a bitch' or 'your a failure' and not even know me? Immature is your name and grow up is what you need to do.

Anyways, sorry for the post, but it just really pissed me off to see alot of it happening. This is a website, not highschool ladies.

- j

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 13:57:16 GMT

Me and mike are good now.
We talked about it.. and we are amazing actually.

Guess what he got me for my birthday? a ring. Not no engagement ring or anything, god.. Just a ring that symbolizes his love for me. Its really adorable and expensive. Take a look!

You can't see it that well, but its white gold with a small half karat diamond.
cuuuutee!
I love him.

And he also got me a t shirt from my favourite store, and Took me out to dinner that night.. AND to bowling for a couple games and then we went and played some pool at the pool hall.. and had some drinks and before I knew it.. It was too many drinks. Haha
good times. But his money was blown that night. and I feel soo bad!

Ladies, Obviously you like it when your man spoils you, but do you ever feel bad taking his money? I mean I dont take it, but he just keeps buying and buying and I feel terrible. Cause now he's broke

February 7th Oh Nine --

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 13:52:26 GMT

It's my Birthday tomorrow!
I'll be 19.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Me and Mike have been arguing the past couple days. I mean.. its over nothing yet apparently our relationship is beyong immature fights. Yet he says It's all me? How... He gets home puts a grouch on for the rest of the night and it goes from there. I mean this fight was over nothing. nothing! It was ridiculous. But I said fuck this and I slept downstairs on the couch. Yup. And Last night I slept in the spare room. I have been talking to my best friend about it yesterday and she gave me some advice. I mean, I give advice to all my friends when they ask me, and its good but when it comes to my problems I can't listen to myself. So I ask someone else. And it usually works out. But mike came home from work last night and did'nt say a word to me. And im obviously going to make him ~~come to me~~ because I didnt do anything wrong. Seriously. I was being all nice and telling him stories about nothing, like usual. And he listens and all of a sudden he disrespected me and ignored me.. And i was like wtf? And then I tried talking to him about it. Cause I hate leaving things like that before bed. And he wouldnt budge, and I was so sick of it already cause thats all that happens all the time. and it gets on my fuckin nerves. And here it happened ~~again!~~ So i said fuck it, cause seriously, I'm not doing it anymore. I cant. it hurts. Im emotional as it is and it kills me each time it happens. So I think I have to tell him that. But he always has something to come back to me with. Like he is a sweet talked and I know that. But I always give in to what he says, and forget about myself and I can't do that anymore Or else it will get worse. Dont get me wrong I love him. alot. That's why I need to tell him this. It kind of feels like I'm losing my love for him, but inside myself, I havent at all. And it feels like he is too.. I can see it. But i cant be sure of it. So, if he still doesnt talk to me tonight, I dont know what to do but i will just do whatever is right. It's my fucking Birthday tomorrow, so if he seriously is going to be like this to me on my birthday.. oh man hes fucking dead. I will leave. But, since I live with him, I can't really just leave, where am i supposed to go? lol. Anyways. enough complaining.
Thanks I just needed to vent a little.

Happy Birthday to me!

What would you do in this situation? Does he deserve my attention? Was it right to sleep somewhere else?

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions...

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 12:57:58 GMT

So, I took a yr off school completely to work and figure out what I want to do with my career. I've recently been thinking and I have many choices to choose from as I am interested in many things.
I love kids,I love sports, and I love helping people. I was going to go to school in the first place for police foundations and got thinking about it and I dont think I would want to do that afterall.. Im scared of a mouse for god sakes. I have nursing in mind. I think it would be very hard to work in sick kids.. as I love kids, but i would feel loved and appreciated.. and I think i would love it. or even in the ER (emergency room) I take stress out of my work environment easily and I think I would be able to handle that. Also, Sports Injury.. I think i would love to do that because its related to sports and ive always been interested in the physiotherapist section.. but the problem here is theres very few jobs and to make good money I'd have to try to get into government jobs like WSIB, or something like that. Another one Im interested in is becoming a phys-ed teacher. But to become that I have to go to eachers college I believe. And i don't see myself having the smarts to do so.. or the integrity. I love kids, but for the phys-ed part i would want to work in highschool with older students.

Those are some of my choices:
1-policing
2-nursing
3-sports injury
4-teaching (phys-ed)

I also was looking into zoology. Because animals are what I love. A lot. I think it would be amaaazing to work day to night with exotic animals like lions and giraffe's. Wouldn't you? Ugh, its such a hard decision to make

I think what I should do is apply to the top schools i need to, and apply for different things.. while waiting figure out what my greatest aspiration is and what I think I can do in school without killing myself.

Do you think thats a good idea, or should I be applying to the schools of my choice now, rather than the other way around?

Second chances, do they gain back trust

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 15:23:13 GMT

Okay, so Ive been dating this guy, mike.. for 2 years on the 17 of february. Its a good thing, now.. But I have a story to tell you about what has happened to us earlier.

It was about 3 months into our relationship and he cheated on me with this girl ive always disliked, or let me say hate. I didnt know he did until like a weekk or two later. My best friends kept telling me that he did and they knew for a while just ddint knwo how to tell me and i didnt know if i could believe them or not. So i asked mike and he said he didnt.. Okay, so i told me friends that and they told me he was lying. So i let it go for a while and I obviously kept thinking about it day after day. Finally i asked him again and to tell me the truth. and he told me he did, so i freaked and asked him why he didnt tell me this the first time i asked him and he said it happened after i asked him the first time..

Why would you cheat on me after i asked you if you cheated on me showing you how upset i was? How stupid is that? Anyways.. okay so we broke up for a couple weeks and he came to me apologizing asking me back being really upset. I believe in second chances, so I gave him one.. After that I was at a party and so was he and we werent talking cause he was being an idiot and i didnt wanna deal with it and i saw this girl all over him, so i went up to her and told her to back off and then next thing i know shes trying to kiss him and i saw her peck him on the lips.. i got all upset and went home. i didnt talk to mike for some time until i finally got sick of waiting for him to call and called him. he explained that it was just a kiss? Just a kiss? with some other girl, other than your girlfriend? is it me or was that wrong? Okay so.. that happened, end of story.. moving on. Nothing has happened since, But i keep thinking to myself that he might do something, I mean its been over a year since this all happened but once its happened to someone I believe they will think about it all the time.

I always bug mike about it and how i dont trust him, but i do.. i think i gained most of his trust back. but im still scared that if he goes to the bar without me one night some girl will be all over him and he wont stop it. But overall, I trust him, I just dont want to get hurt again and be shown that second chances arent worth it.

is it just me, or did i do the wrong thing with giving him another chance? Has this ever happened to you?

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 14:30:49 GMT

Hey everyone. Im new to datigish But you can find me @ xanga. Feel free to help me get started and leave me some love!! <3